18 months

 

18 months 

     The past 18 months has been with its ups & downs.  With it being 18 months, the sound of your voice is slowly going away.   The way you walked in the door is going away.  But your deodorant smell, I still have that.  Its becoming harder & harder to remember you.  

     People have been telling me that I have the memories that we had, since the other things are fading.  But anyone that knows me.  I am person that never forgets anything that happens around me.  I have several different things going on inside my head that I am trying to figure out how to deal with it.   I have learned some new things at therapy.  But I can't explain what I have learned.  

     During the morning time,  I have been quiet when I start my day at work.  Some people will check in with me to see if I am okay.  But others just keep walking.   I tell the ones that check, I'm so-so or I'm  okay. Which are the 2 sayings that I absolutely don't like saying.  I wish there were other sayings on how you feel.  I know there is, but not at that time.  

    I will continue to honor Timmy with everything I do.   I miss him so darn much.  Please forgive me if i have repeated myself from any previous post.  

     

I would like to thank everyone for their continued thoughts and prayers.