Sunday, May 8, 2022

It's been hard - Leighton's Birthday Party

 Good afternoon  - Good evening.  Happy Mother's day to all the Mother's that read this.  I would also like to say a HAPPY Belated 6th birthday to my nephew Leighton Michael.   



     As many of you know,  I talk alot about my past and my health.  Well, this past Monday I went to the Doctor.   She was only concerned with a couple of things. I will get into more detail later.   I took a couple of different questions/ text.  She actually diagnosed me with what I have known for the past 6 to 7 years.  Anxiety and Depression- then she informs me that she doesn't like to prescribe any medicines unless they are really needed.  She asked me how I deal with what is going on in my head.  I told her that I talk to some people about it.   But I told her I feel like I am bugging them.  She inform me that if I need to talk.  All I have to do is call the doctors office and tell them that I need a "Mood Check" and they will set up a time to have a phone conversation with the doctor.   

The things she was worried about was my weight and a couple of my lab works.  So, I'm trying to figure out what I am doing wrong. 


     Many of you know in my earlier blogs that I  spilled my guts out when my niece-Makenna was almost born.  As of 6 years ago,  I was unable to have any more kids.  So, everytime I see Makenna I am happy that I am here to see & hold her.  But on the other hand,  I am crying inside.   I can't explain why.   It is just the way I feel.   

SO I AM SORRY IF I AM BORING ANYONE WITH THIS.  BUT THIS IS WHAT THE DOCTOR PRESCRIBED FOR ME TO DO.   IT HELPS, BUT I CONTINUE TO FIGURE OUT SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT IN MY HEAD.  



Please continue to say a prayer for me.