Anxiety, Depression, and Hypothyroidism - Great combination--NOT!!!!!!!

Anxiety, Depression and Hypothyroidism - Great Combination

  With someone that is dealing with all 3 of these health issues.  It's not fun at all.  People may look at me and think that everything is going Peachy keen.  But I promise you up and down, it's not.  I know that when people look at me.  Why is she always so happy.  Well, I want to come clean.  IT IS A FRONT.

   Well, I can tell you that I have been dealing with Anxiety and Depression for a very long time now.  It started in Middle School when I started to get picked on & it continued until High School.  And I would try my best to be invisible, which it never happened.   I would try my best to avoid people, so it wouldn't happen.  Well, it did not matter what.  

     Then a couple of years ago, I went to the eye doctor for an examine.  The doctor came in a explained to me that I had extra fluid on my spine.  It I didn't get it corrected, that I could end up going blind.  I am still trying to process this and a work in progress.  This also scares me, because I see what my Grandmother Jojo when she was alive being 85% blind.  Also with my Mother, she goes every 3 to 6 months to a needle shot in her eye to help her.

     Then after that, I went to the another doctor had a some lab work done.  The reason I had lab work done was I was constantly falling asleep when I would calm down after a very stressful day.  That test came back positive for low levels in my thyroid.  Which is called, Hypothyroidism.  I was also concerned, I had lost at least 20 to 25 lbs with out even trying. A person with Hypothyroidism has symptoms of being irritable, cranky, sleepy, always tired, weight gain, forgetful and depressed. 

       A couple of years pasted, I was having trouble with my stomach.  Went to the doctor, he ran some test and ended up doing an DNC.  Well, the doctor informed me that when the test results would come back.  He would call me.  I will never forget, where I was or what was doing, when I got the call.  I was on lunch, when the doctor called me and informed me that the test results.  The cells that they tested came back pre-cancerous. A couple of weeks after the initial call, I was setup to have one of 2 choices done (IUD or an Hysterectomy - which meant I couldn't have anymore kids.) That was the scarcest day of my life and my whole world slowed down to a crawl.  

     Then a couple of years pasted, I drove myself down to UNC Hillsbrough Hospital and come to find out that I needed my gallbladder removed.  So, I ended up going under the needle again.  However, after this I have felt much better.

     I guess what I am trying to say is that.  With on top of this and everything else that I have been through in the past. I guess God is shown me that I can handle whatever is thrown at me.

Why in the World, does this go on?

    

All I have to say is, "Why?"

     We are living in a cruel world, & it's getting ridiculous & out of control.  All this bullying other people & kids needs to stop.  If doesn't matter, your race, your skin color, if you are rich or poor, popular or not popular, fat or skinny.  God made us all the same way.  He gave each and everyone a heart.

     I have 2 topics that you see that is a everyday issue in public or social media.  The topics are kids bullying kids & kids disrespecting parents or another adult.

     The 1st topic "Kids bullying Kids", it hits near & close to the my heart.  Because when  I was young and in school.   I was bullied a whole heck of a lot.  It was basically verbal saying (your fat, you ugly) & the words were from classmates that was messing with me.  Then it continued until high school and it got even worse and it hurt even more.  Because classmates had parties and sleep overs and I never got invited.  Then it took me 20+ years to talk about it.  And I still have TROUBLE talking about it.  Sometimes I have to play it off like everything is fine.  But, blame well knowing it not.

     So when I hear or read about stories where kids got bullied by a classmate.  Then they do something to them self.  It breaks my heart and makes me angry.  And I want to cry for that child.  But, I know that I can pray for the child and family.  Also, continue telling my story.

     The 2nd topic that is also near and dear to my heart is "RESPECT for Adults and Elder's by kids".  When I was being bought up by my parents.  Then when I would stay with my grandparents.  It was Yes Ma'am, No Ma'am, Yes Sir, No Sir, Please and Thank you.  If Grown-ups were talking and you didn't wait for them to stop.  You would be picking your butt up off the floor.  

     If they were talking and you waited until they were done.  Then they would acknowledge you.  If you tried to touch an adult (ie: slap, kick or hit).  You would have consider your self dead.  Now days I see kids, talking back to parents, teachers and other grown up.  And telling them what they are going to do.  That really ticks me off.  

   Basically what I am trying to say is,

  EVERYONE NEEDS TO RESPECT EVERYONE ( ALL AGES)

Am I Wonderwoman?

"Am I Wonder Woman?" 

That is a daily question that I ask myself.

     I guess it is really frustrating that people make me out to be like Wonder Woman.  Blame well knowing, that I am not her.  But, a girl can wish right. I know what I have to do, daily.  But, I would like to just sit down an take a break.  Then you have people that just wanna talk junk about how the way you do stuff.  I really don't understand why they get off on stuff like that.  

People can talk so much junk.  In turn when it comes to them doing stuff.  Oh, WOW!  It just kills them.  So, basically I want everyone to back off of me.  I am doing the best I can do.  Even if it is not asking for any help at all.  I am a very determined person and I will make it happen any way I can.

My daily schedule it goes like this:

• get up
• Get ready
• Take Dad to drive the bus
• Come back and get Kaleb up and going for the school day
• Take Kaleb to school
• Pick Dad up from School, so he can take me to work
• Drop me off at work,
• 8 hours of chasing kids, changing diapers and playing with them 
• Dad picks me up from work 
• We either go to pick Timmy up or we go home
• I get home: help mom out, who is in a wheel chair
• fix supper, help Kaleb with homework, do laundry and other household chores
• Then if Timmy needs to be picked up, then I do.
• Go an get Groceries if needed
• Back to the house
• Kaleb shower, bed, and ready for the next day.
• Then I take a shower, pajamas and bed.
• Not before 11 pm.
• Then back up at 4:30, the next day to start all over again.

      I know it doesn't sound like much.  But at my weight and health issues that probably still doesn't sound like much any way.  But it sure in the heck is hard, sometimes to get up and go.  I am trying to make some changes, but it is hard as heck to do so with my flipped up schedule.  My goal that I made with my doctor is to get to down 60 more lbs or more. I have to have that done by the end of 2019. THAT IS MY GOAL, ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.  IT WILL BE DONE.

Profession: Chosen/ Love doing or you just had to find something

Profession??????

 Chosen for you/ Love doing it

or

You just had to find something to do

     I know that every day, somewhere someone ask, "Am I doing the right job?"  Or "Did I Choose the right profession?" In my opinion, that if you love the job, then you are meant to be there.  There are more than several jobs that I commend the people doing.  They are firefighter, police officer, EMTs, Nurses, Doctors, School-age teachers (K-12), Construction Workers, Truck Drivers, and most of all School Bus Drivers.  All those jobs, people love to do or that is their calling.

               What would be your top 5 jobs that you commend other people on?

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     I really don't know how people can do all these jobs and then come home or wonder am I coming home.    

    Maybe, a lot of people don't know about me is that I have 2 Associates Degrees from Alamance Community College.  The 1st one I got right after I graduated from Western Alamance, that was Business Administration.  Which was my 1st passion.  I would work with my Aunt at the company she worked with.  I was very good at all of those jobs.  She challenged me.  Then, once I graduated in 1999. 

     I felt the need to challenge myself again.  So, I went back and got my 2nd Associate Degree from Alamance Community College.  The 2nd one was Early Childhood Education.  Which every since I started in 2000.  I have been in Child care ever since.  I have worked with ages (6 weeks - 12 years).  When I did my student teaching to graduate, I was even in Kindergarten and a Special Needs class at South Graham.  I will admit that I wanted my babies back.  

     I have worked at several different centers.  I was a Lead teacher and a Director of a center.  I also did both of those jobs together.  I have basically seen my 1st or 2nd group of kids, when I first started teaching - graduated from high school and had babies of their own.  And that makes me feel old.  I will continue doing this job as long as I can.   

Relieving STRESS!

Relieving STRESS

     People relieve stress in many different ways.  Some people take long hot showers/ baths, get their nails and hair done.  They also sit outside and listen to the rain or listen to many different kinds of music. Others read books, watch movies while snuggling up with a blanket, and then there are the ones that go on the adventurous side.  I chose to go a totally different route with me relieving stress.

     The way I chose to relieve stress, brightens up people's day.  And I don't even see their faces, when they receive it in the mail.  However, when they send me a message or call to say that they received it.  That is okay with me.  I choose to relieve stress by creating cards, drawing cards and sending the cards to people in the mail. 

   The following pictures are what I have send to my friends and family.

I also do Get Well soon cards, wedding cards, Holiday cards, Birthday cards and Thank you cards.

I also love to do face painting for kids.  I have participated in 3 family fun days (2 at a Community Day for local fire departments and a fun day at a daycare I worked at.)

I pray that receiving my card makes your day.

Everyone have a blessed day!

Crazy Weather

 

CRAZY WEATHER

     I can say that the weather for 2019 has been CRAZY.  I mean one day we have sunny day and then the next we have a winter advisory.   I know North Carolina winter weather is suppose to be brutal.  But not this.  I would love to be able to go outside with a thin jacket on and have fun with make babies at work.  I don't like it to hot and I don't like it to cold.  

     The only reason I say this is, I go from having a Sinus Infection and Bronchitis (the clearing up).  Now not at least 1 month later, Sinus Infection, Bronchitis, and Allergies.  I can't even have a good night sleep.  It drives me Bananas. My cough is ridiculous.  My eyes are itching.  But, I feel fine.

     I have tried everything.   I guess it has to run its course.  I also guess I have to be lousy.

2019 - A okay year so far

2019 - A okay year so far

     With us moving into our new home, it has been WILD.  We have been going through boxes and getting rid of stuff, we haven't used in over 6 months.  For me being in the house it is still unreal.  To get off of work, to be able to come home and take my shoes off to have a good home cooked meal.  Still to this day, when I tell people about it.  They say, "are you serious?"

Yearly Check-up

     As many of you guys know, I have lost about 80 lbs.  Well, went to the doctor and the she asked me what my goal was for the year.  I told her to lose more weight.  She asked me, "how much?"  When I told her she looked at me, like I was crazy.  I may be able to meet my goal weight.  With my goal weight, I know I can beat it.  But, it may be a challenge.  To 

meet my goal weight, I need to lose 63 more lbs.  

*** Will keep everyone posted on how I am doing with meeting my goal!****