Good Bye 2018! Hello, 2019!

     People can stay that there 2018 was a CRAZY year.  Well, I am right there with them.  My 2018 started off with the van messing up, mom breaking her leg in 2 places.  Then me having my gallbladder removed. Then the whole family getting evicted and living with family/ friends and a motel for 6 months. 

     Then in November, everything was looking on the bright side.  We got the van back and fixed.  A couple of Angels came into our lives and bought us a house.  We finally got out of the motel and are living in our own home.  In between all of that, we had friends & family praying for us and helping us out. 

     I never knew, how many people my family has touched and helped out. I would like to thank everyone that has helped my family out in 2018.  You guys have no idea how rough is has been.  I pray that 2019, starts off with a good note and will do so all year.  I pray everyone will be safe tonight if you are drinking, please don't drive. 

Happy New Year, Everyone!

Have a great 2019.

Thank you!

Thank you!

I would like to thank everyone for helping out with Kaleb's Christmas Gifts.  He really appreciated all that he received.

We had a great Christmas with the gifts that we received as a family.  We love each and everyone

My Pride and Joy -- Christmas for Kaleb

My Pride and Joy

     It kills me thinking that kids wake up Christmas morning not having at least one gift from Santa.  I would love to help every child to receive a Christmas gift from Santa.  Unfortunately, funds do not allow me to do so.  I would also love to create a free food pantry to help the less fortunate out.  Funds do not allow me to do so.

     I work paycheck to paycheck trying to catch up from where we were behind.  I don't even know if Kaleb will be getting Christmas gifts this year.  It might be after Christmas, when he gets them.  That is probably when we will be able, too.  If you would like to help, please let me know.

"Seeing kids - not getting anything for Christmas breaks my Heart."

What to do in a situation like this?

Don't know about Christmas

     Some parents try their best to show their child a good Christmas, by getting them what they asked Santa for.  Then you have parents that work their bottom off and still can't even get their child a decent gift that is on their Christmas List.  Then you have the parents that can't even get their child a gift that is on their Christmas List.  WHAT WOULD YOU DO IN THAT SITUATION?  When I was little my parents tried their best to get me & my sister's the presents that we wanted.  But sometimes it was hard for them to do so.

     So, when a child ask why didn't Santa bring me a gift that was on my Christmas List.  What is your answer to that question?  I really don't know what I would say.  I guess what I am trying to say, is that Kaleb wants almost the most expensive thing and it breaks my heart that he won't get it.  And I know it breaks his heart.

       As for Kaleb's other gifts, they will be probably got right before Christmas.  Hope they still have them or Santa can find them.

Any suggestion or comment about what to do?  Please help me.

The Best Christmas Gift Ever!!!!! PRAISE REPORT!!!!!!!

Maybe NO Christmas at all!  

     I was starting to believe that we were going to stay in a hotel for the holidays.  Because we couldn't find any place in our budget. Because what we needed was a 4 bedroom/ 2 bath and they ranged from $1000.00 and up per month.  Even if we tried our best, it would even be possible.

    I believe God puts people in your life for a reason.  For 2018, our year has been a CRAZY one.  Since the beginning.  There have been several angels placed in our lives.  But there are 2 angels that God placed in our lives.  Timmy has known them since he was a little boy.  

     When they found out about our current living situation they wanted to help out in some way.  So, they called Timmy one day & told they wanted to buy us a house.  Timmy was in shock.  He said, OK!  Then Timmy came home & told us.  Then a couple of days later, they called & told Timmy (that they wanted to go and check out this house.)  We agreed to go and check it out.

     We went and checked it out.  You walked in the door.  OMG!!!! Amazing!!! I walked in the door and fell in love.  Timmy called, the couple back and told them that we loved it.  They said, okay!  The couple called a couple of hours and told us that they accepted the offer.   Then they called and told us the closing date was 12-5-2018.  

The Best Christmas Gift Ever!!!!!

****Questions****

• What do you do for someone who has done such a big thing for your family?

• What did I do to deserve this?

• Do I need to pay it forward?

Please God, show me how and what I can do to show my gratitude for such a big gift.  Thank you God for the blessing that has been placed on my family.

Amen!

Wonderful Holiday

Happy Thanksgiving 2018

     I have had a blessed and grateful day.  I was wondering how it would be to celebrate Thanksgiving in a hotel.  However, I found how it was today.  I have never seen so many families come together for a holiday.  We had so much Turkey, Mac & Cheese, Green beans, peas, Mashed potatoes, ham,rolls, gravy & desserts.  

    I found out that they do this ever year.  I think this would be a great tradition to continue in the future.  Deep down in my heart, I would love to be able to help people that have supported me.  I was bought up that, if you have something that you don't want, don't let it go to waste. But to share it with other people, they might like it.  

Letter from a Bus Driver's Daughter

WHY DRIVER'S DON'T STOP FOR SCHOOL BUSES?

Dear Person driving the car who injured the child getting on or off the bus,

     How many people have every had someone in their family that was hurt or injured by another car? 

     I haven't but I have had heard some really CRAZY stories.  The stories I have heard about people passing their stop signs and looking the bus driver like they are CRAZY.   But in turn the bus driver has to look at for the kids that are outside the bus and then they are watching the kids that they have already picked up.   I believe that the drivers driving the cars or other vehicles that pass the bus, really are not thinking what they are doing.  If you are running late, then you need to leave earlier.  If you know that a bus stops on your route to your destination, then you need to leave early or change it.  

     

      In my opinion, driver's who pass stopped school buses should get a punishment.  If they were to cause a wreck or injury someone, that punishment would need to be a little bit harsh.  I have had the privilege of being a School bus driver's daughter for both parents.  My mother drove for 29 years (elementary, middle and high school).  My father has been driving for 18 1/2 years (elementary, middle and high school).  

          I praise bus drivers of any transportation (ie: school, trailway, and city bus).  I could not do your job.  With the School bus drivers, some have a total of 50 to 60 elementary kids on their bus.  Yes, BY THEIR SELF.  Then there is the bus drivers that driver for middle and high school, they have a total of 30 to 40 kids.  Which I know that those are able to handle themselves.  But in some cases their are not. If you think you can handle this, go right ahead.

   Basically, what I am saying.  DRIVERS, PLEASE WATCH OUT FOR SCHOOL BUSES AND THE KIDS GETTING ON OR OFF THE BUS.   If the stop arm is out, please stop.  I hate seeing on the news that a child has been injured getting on and off the bus.  Please watch out.  

Thank you ,

A Bus Driver's Daughter

Update on 1st post

October/ November

     Dad is good with his hernia.  The Doctor said, if it doesn't hurt him that they will watch it.  We have the van back.  After Dad saw the Cardiologist, she called him and told him that he need to scheduled a Heart Catheter procedure.  Because there was calcium on his artery.  We are praying for a good report. 

November

     Dad heard back from his heart doctor.   He said, that he had no blockages in his arteries.  Now, I go to the doctor's tomorrow for a 2nd mammogram and ultrasound.  Because I felt something.  I am really praying that nothing shows up.   

Great News!!!!!!

     The Ultrasound and Mammogram came back negative.  I have to go back in a year to be re-checked.  Praise God!!!

****Please continue to send the prayers. ****

Flipping Frustrated!!!!!!

     What would you do if you were thrown until a situation and not knowing what you are doing?

     I guess people think that I am Stupid or Crazy.  If I am put in a routine everyday and then I am changed suddenly.  Then I am not going to know what to do.  And then you go behind my back and tell someone about it .  That ticks me off.  I know I am not perfect, but I am learning everyday. 

     I have been talked about all my life.  When I find out that it happens, I just lose all happiness for that day.  And I am down in the dumps.  And then people ask, "What is wrong?"  "Are you okay?"  And all I can say is, I guess I am okay.  Or I don't feel good.

     I try myself to be happy everyday.  But, like I said.  My days depend on how the vibe is around me.  I know I am my on person. But,  I also radiate vibes from other people.   

Getting People to Understand

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     It is hard trying to get people to understand, what is going on in my life.  It is hard as heck to work paycheck to paycheck and trying to get all the bills caught up and stayed caught up. Trying to stay up on our feet.  Also putting food on the table and gas in the car.  For some people it is easy and others, it is hard.

     In the last 4 months, we were homeless and hardly having enough money for food and gas.  Then people want to know, why can't you purchase a home.  1. NO MONEY,  2. NOT GOOD CREDIT,  and 3.THE ONES WE LOOK AT AND WHAT WE NEED IS OUT OF OUR BUDGET.  Then I have the health issues with my dad, which when he goes out it will hurt us.

     If anyone knows of something that I can do or anyone that can help us out. Please let me know?

My best friend

   

     I am writing about a kind, hearted, loving, creative young lady.  She has been through so much, since we have met 7 + years ago. She is kid-like it's not even funny.  When we 1st met, I thought wow, she is she a wacky person.  Then the more I got to know her. I became closer to her & now we are the best of friends.  

     The person I am writing about is Vanessa Mobley (aka: Squishy).  The reason I am writing about her is that I want to show her how much I love her and appreciate her.  I love her to the moon and back.  We both work in childcare with all ages (6 weeks - 12 years).  Vanessa has a rough past, she had several miscarriages.  And yet she still came back to work after her medical leave.  She loves her babies like they are her own.  While she was on medical leave, I did her job.  Her and her husband had times they hit financial hardship.  I would her her out with money for gas & food.  Now she is doing okay. 

     When I found out that I had a pre-cancerous scare. The 1st person told was Vanessa that I would have to have a surgery,  When I went out on medical leave, she did my job.  Which I think is what bought us closer.  When I told her what was going on with my family being homeless and having financial hardship, she wanted to do something to help us out. So she started a Go Fund Me page to raise money for my family to get back on our feet.  However she is trying her best to support me and my family.  

     Although Vanessa and I are working in another county and at another centers. She came to support me at  a fundraiser that I put together.   We still talk almost every day in Messenger or maybe more.  When we talk on Messenger - all she has to do is use emoji's & I know what she is saying or talking about.  She knows the right thing to say or to send in Messenger to make my day.

     I would love to show her how much I care about her. And how she picks me up when I am down.   would love to so something special for her.  I know this is a start.  Ideas Please!!!!!

My Best Friend
Vanessa
"Squshy"

Weight Loss Journey 2014 - 2018

WOW!!!! 

     I have always been overweight every since I was little.  I really can't believe that this has really happened.  I really thought I couldn't do this.  But I did.  I have several kinds of health issues and that started the weight loss. I was very concerned about why and how I was losing so much weight.  From 2014 - 2015, I had lost 20 - 30 lbs.  I have always wanted to lose weight.

     Then 2015-2016, I had a pre-cancer scare.  I had a hysterectomy and lost another 20 - 40 lbs.  That was one of the scariest times of my life.  Then in 2016 - 2018, I started a new job, had my gallbladder removed and lost my home.  Now I am down - 81 lbs.  My goal now to lose is 130 lbs, left.  I know I can do it.  But it will be a challenge, but bring it on.

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"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13 

Why are people/kids so mean, cruel and disrespected to other people?

"Why are people/kids so mean, cruel and disrespected to other people?"

This has been a long time coming. I'm have wanted to do this for a while, now! I believe in my heart that I am ready to talk about this. All through elementary, middle and high school, I was the shy, overweight and absolutely had no friends (that would go and hang out or just to talk on the phone, too). I mean I talked to people, but was hard for me to do so.

Because I couldn't look people straight in the face. In Middle School, I would always try to be invisible because I was being picked on. I would feel so bad that I would hold on to it & not tell anyone about what was going on. While everyone else was going out on Friday and Saturday nights, I would be at home doing nothing or getting caught up on homework. I sometimes would lay in my room and cry myself to sleep.

While going to High School, I knew it would not be any different. There was only one thing that I looked forward to was Marching Band. I was apart of something special. With me being a part of something special, I was still getting picked on and feeling worthless. I hated feeling like that. 

When I would make myself invisible, I would go to the band l room and hide. Then on Friday and Saturday nights after Football game and Competitions, I would go spend time with the family or I would go home and be by myself. During School, I tried to Forgive and forget. But that was not me. You made me mad or did something to me. I never forgave you. 

After Graduation, I was okay. After accepting Jesus into my heart & started talking to a Classmate that apologized for picking on me. Now we are the Best of Friends. And I Love Him. ❤️ He helped me realize that people have a side of them that is HORRIBLE & they don't care who they hurt or be your friend and then talk behind your back. And that's really not fair. 

So to the ones that in Middle and High school that felt the need to pick on me. I forgive all of you. It has made me to be a better person & yet I'm still shy and overweight. But I have friends, now that I do not have to be invisible with them.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" Philippians 4:13

Wild and Crazy Year - 2018

" I know people have it worse than me"

I have been bought up to and  learned to have family close by.  Some people might not agree with me.  I really don't care about that.  The reason I said that was for the past 12 years, my Mother, Father and Sister have lived with us.  They have helped us out with Kaleb since he was born.  They would watch him, so we wouldn't have to pay for childcare when he was younger.  In return, they could use the van to transport people to work, school, and  doctor's appointments.  They also used the van to pull my Mom's motorized wheel chair trailer.  

January - March

Then starting on New Year's Day 2018- We started having bad things, happening.  We had our engine blow up on us, while taking Timmy to work.  Then at least 20 days into the New Year.  On Jan 21, Mom fell and broke her ankle in 2 palaces.  A couple of weeks, later we were still doing okay.  In the process of the van messed up, my Aunt let us use her car and that messed up.  Once we got those back and fixed.  Mom was home, yeah!  But still had to go to physical therapy to get her leg working like it should.

April - May

I started feeling really sick and not feeling up to par.  I drove us to UNC Hospital in Hillsbrough, to see what was wrong with me.  While there the doctors, proceed to tell me that I need to have my gallbladder removed.  Because I had 100 small gallstones in it.  I was out for at least 1 week.  I would like to Thank my boss for supporting me, while I was on medical leave.

June - July

In June, we received a eviction notice from our Landlord. The letter was on the 1st of June.  However was not hung on the door until the 13th of June.  We had to be out by 1st of July.  We only had 1 month to move 5 years of stuff .  All of the items is in storage and then from 4th of July until now we have been living family, friends and in a hotel.  Also, the van messed up again.

August - October

School started back for Daddy. Kaleb had already been in school for a while.  Then my dear sweet Vanessa Mobley, wanted to help us out.  So she started a Go Fund Me Page to help us out.  She was trying to help us out.  The worst possible thing to be is homeless and financial hardship at the same time.😢 Then the most recent - Dad has a hernia in his stomach that he has to talk to a surgeon. He has to watch what he does.  So, in the next couple of days, we will know what will happen?

What is the saying?  "When it rains, it pours!"

🙏 Please continuing praying for my family.  🙏