Getting People to Understand

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     It is hard trying to get people to understand, what is going on in my life.  It is hard as heck to work paycheck to paycheck and trying to get all the bills caught up and stayed caught up. Trying to stay up on our feet.  Also putting food on the table and gas in the car.  For some people it is easy and others, it is hard.

     In the last 4 months, we were homeless and hardly having enough money for food and gas.  Then people want to know, why can't you purchase a home.  1. NO MONEY,  2. NOT GOOD CREDIT,  and 3.THE ONES WE LOOK AT AND WHAT WE NEED IS OUT OF OUR BUDGET.  Then I have the health issues with my dad, which when he goes out it will hurt us.

     If anyone knows of something that I can do or anyone that can help us out. Please let me know?

My best friend

   

     I am writing about a kind, hearted, loving, creative young lady.  She has been through so much, since we have met 7 + years ago. She is kid-like it's not even funny.  When we 1st met, I thought wow, she is she a wacky person.  Then the more I got to know her. I became closer to her & now we are the best of friends.  

     The person I am writing about is Vanessa Mobley (aka: Squishy).  The reason I am writing about her is that I want to show her how much I love her and appreciate her.  I love her to the moon and back.  We both work in childcare with all ages (6 weeks - 12 years).  Vanessa has a rough past, she had several miscarriages.  And yet she still came back to work after her medical leave.  She loves her babies like they are her own.  While she was on medical leave, I did her job.  Her and her husband had times they hit financial hardship.  I would her her out with money for gas & food.  Now she is doing okay. 

     When I found out that I had a pre-cancerous scare. The 1st person told was Vanessa that I would have to have a surgery,  When I went out on medical leave, she did my job.  Which I think is what bought us closer.  When I told her what was going on with my family being homeless and having financial hardship, she wanted to do something to help us out. So she started a Go Fund Me page to raise money for my family to get back on our feet.  However she is trying her best to support me and my family.  

     Although Vanessa and I are working in another county and at another centers. She came to support me at  a fundraiser that I put together.   We still talk almost every day in Messenger or maybe more.  When we talk on Messenger - all she has to do is use emoji's & I know what she is saying or talking about.  She knows the right thing to say or to send in Messenger to make my day.

     I would love to show her how much I care about her. And how she picks me up when I am down.   would love to so something special for her.  I know this is a start.  Ideas Please!!!!!

My Best Friend
Vanessa
"Squshy"

Weight Loss Journey 2014 - 2018

WOW!!!! 

     I have always been overweight every since I was little.  I really can't believe that this has really happened.  I really thought I couldn't do this.  But I did.  I have several kinds of health issues and that started the weight loss. I was very concerned about why and how I was losing so much weight.  From 2014 - 2015, I had lost 20 - 30 lbs.  I have always wanted to lose weight.

     Then 2015-2016, I had a pre-cancer scare.  I had a hysterectomy and lost another 20 - 40 lbs.  That was one of the scariest times of my life.  Then in 2016 - 2018, I started a new job, had my gallbladder removed and lost my home.  Now I am down - 81 lbs.  My goal now to lose is 130 lbs, left.  I know I can do it.  But it will be a challenge, but bring it on.

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"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13 

Why are people/kids so mean, cruel and disrespected to other people?

"Why are people/kids so mean, cruel and disrespected to other people?"

This has been a long time coming. I'm have wanted to do this for a while, now! I believe in my heart that I am ready to talk about this. All through elementary, middle and high school, I was the shy, overweight and absolutely had no friends (that would go and hang out or just to talk on the phone, too). I mean I talked to people, but was hard for me to do so.

Because I couldn't look people straight in the face. In Middle School, I would always try to be invisible because I was being picked on. I would feel so bad that I would hold on to it & not tell anyone about what was going on. While everyone else was going out on Friday and Saturday nights, I would be at home doing nothing or getting caught up on homework. I sometimes would lay in my room and cry myself to sleep.

While going to High School, I knew it would not be any different. There was only one thing that I looked forward to was Marching Band. I was apart of something special. With me being a part of something special, I was still getting picked on and feeling worthless. I hated feeling like that. 

When I would make myself invisible, I would go to the band l room and hide. Then on Friday and Saturday nights after Football game and Competitions, I would go spend time with the family or I would go home and be by myself. During School, I tried to Forgive and forget. But that was not me. You made me mad or did something to me. I never forgave you. 

After Graduation, I was okay. After accepting Jesus into my heart & started talking to a Classmate that apologized for picking on me. Now we are the Best of Friends. And I Love Him. ❤️ He helped me realize that people have a side of them that is HORRIBLE & they don't care who they hurt or be your friend and then talk behind your back. And that's really not fair. 

So to the ones that in Middle and High school that felt the need to pick on me. I forgive all of you. It has made me to be a better person & yet I'm still shy and overweight. But I have friends, now that I do not have to be invisible with them.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me!" Philippians 4:13

Wild and Crazy Year - 2018

" I know people have it worse than me"

I have been bought up to and  learned to have family close by.  Some people might not agree with me.  I really don't care about that.  The reason I said that was for the past 12 years, my Mother, Father and Sister have lived with us.  They have helped us out with Kaleb since he was born.  They would watch him, so we wouldn't have to pay for childcare when he was younger.  In return, they could use the van to transport people to work, school, and  doctor's appointments.  They also used the van to pull my Mom's motorized wheel chair trailer.  

January - March

Then starting on New Year's Day 2018- We started having bad things, happening.  We had our engine blow up on us, while taking Timmy to work.  Then at least 20 days into the New Year.  On Jan 21, Mom fell and broke her ankle in 2 palaces.  A couple of weeks, later we were still doing okay.  In the process of the van messed up, my Aunt let us use her car and that messed up.  Once we got those back and fixed.  Mom was home, yeah!  But still had to go to physical therapy to get her leg working like it should.

April - May

I started feeling really sick and not feeling up to par.  I drove us to UNC Hospital in Hillsbrough, to see what was wrong with me.  While there the doctors, proceed to tell me that I need to have my gallbladder removed.  Because I had 100 small gallstones in it.  I was out for at least 1 week.  I would like to Thank my boss for supporting me, while I was on medical leave.

June - July

In June, we received a eviction notice from our Landlord. The letter was on the 1st of June.  However was not hung on the door until the 13th of June.  We had to be out by 1st of July.  We only had 1 month to move 5 years of stuff .  All of the items is in storage and then from 4th of July until now we have been living family, friends and in a hotel.  Also, the van messed up again.

August - October

School started back for Daddy. Kaleb had already been in school for a while.  Then my dear sweet Vanessa Mobley, wanted to help us out.  So she started a Go Fund Me Page to help us out.  She was trying to help us out.  The worst possible thing to be is homeless and financial hardship at the same time.😢 Then the most recent - Dad has a hernia in his stomach that he has to talk to a surgeon. He has to watch what he does.  So, in the next couple of days, we will know what will happen?

What is the saying?  "When it rains, it pours!"

🙏 Please continuing praying for my family.  🙏