Happy anniversary & to honor Timmy

 Happy Anniversary & to honor Timmy 

     I have tried to write this several times. I have been trying to find words on how to honor Timmy on our Anniversary. On November 15, 2003, I married my best friend, partner, love of my life & my husband. We went through alot of mental, physical & emotional things. Timmy was my 1st real love.  

     I was blessed to call him my best friend, partner, love of my life, & husband after 20 years and 4 months. This is how it breaks it down.  

20 years + 4 months = 244.164 months 

7305 + 121.667= 7,426.667 days

175320 + 2920.003 = 178,240.003 hours 

10,519,200 + 175, 200.192= 185,719,392  

    minutes 

631,152,000 + 10,512,011.5 = 

    641,664,011.5 seconds

     This would have been 21 years. I will continue to honor Timmy with everything I do.  

     I love you to the moon and back. 

 Happy Anniversary!

Please continue to pray for me & I continue to move forward.  

Update on Dad- part3

 

Update on Dad 

     He surgery went really well.   He is in a room.  He possibly will be coming home tomorrow.  Depends on what the doctor says.  He had to sit up, eat & then stand up all before tonight.  

     We want to thank everyone for their continued thoughts and prayers. 

     I will keep everyone posted. 

7 months- It's getting harder

 

7 months- It's getting harder 

      7 months to some people might be not a long time.  But someone who has lost a love one/ spouse it's a long long time.  It has been 5110.006 hours, 306600.336 minutes & 18396020.2 seconds.  I have tried my best to remember your voice.   With help of my emotional support frog-  yes ma'am.   And the smell of your deodorant-  yes ma'am- a stick of it sitting beside my bed.  

     I have definitely step of my box.   I know I had told you that I wanted a tattoo for the 4 generations of Holt's.  And I also mentioned that I wanted a memory tattoo for Uncle Johnny.  You told me to go for it.  The I decided to do something in memory of you.  Everytime I look at it.  I feel like you are here with me. 

 

     We have helped each other , both Kaleb and I.   Kaleb has definitely stepped up.   Since Dad is dealing with this health issue.  Everytime we are at the hospital I feel your presence.   It's like you are either standing at the curtain or right beside the bed.   Timmy with Dad having his aorta valve replacement surgery on Tuesday, it will be scary.   But I know he has to have it done.  So he can be better for the Burlington Christmas Parade to be the Grand Marshall.   Just please place your hands on Dad, the doctors and everyone that will be helping out.  

     So my emotional, mental, social & physical status- all stink.  

My emotional status has been like a light switch.   Which I know is normal for someone in my situation.  

My mental status is about the same.   I have people who have been challenging me to do or try different things.  

My physical status is not good.   I have been going to the doctors, taking my medicine, eating and drinking plenty of water.   I also have been trying my best to get out of the house more.  

My social status/ interaction- STINKS.  I have tried to invite people to go & get a bite to eat.  But 1) the person told me to leave them alone & 2) the person never even responded back.  So I guess I'm not even going to try again.  

But one thing, I am scared of right now is alone time.  I'm tired of being lonely.   But I'm trying. 

I MISS YOU, TIMMY!  LOVE YOU!!

Please continue to pray for us as we are going through these things.  

 

Update on Dad #2

 

Update on Dad #2

     As I reported in my previous post - Dad had NO BLOCKAGES!!!! But we did go ahead and set up his aorta valve replacement surgery.   It is October 29 @ UNC main hospital.   

     Right now we are waiting on his artery to clot after doing the heart cather.   It's a slow process.   He is hungry and bored out of his mind.

     Thank you for you thoughts and prayers.

Update on Dad

 Update on Dad

    Dad is in recovery.   He has NO BLOCKAGES!  So, he has to take it easy for the rest of today & some of tomorrow.  When we leave here we will have the TAVR- valve replacement surgery date.  The Cardiologist just came by & said, everything looked good. 

     So now we are waiting on the person who schedules the surgery to come by & for the spot on his arm where they inserted the cather. I will keep everyone posted his recovery.   We want to thank everyone for their continued thoughts and prayers.  

Update on Dad

 

Update on Dad 

     Ever since he took his self out of work.   All he has been doing is chilling.  He does have a procedure tomorrow, which is a heart cather that will be done on the left side of his heart.  If they find some then, the doctors said that they will fix it.   Once that is done, then we will find out the date of the TAVR procedure. 

     Also one side note,  Dad was nominated for the Grand Marshall of the Burlington Christmas Parade & he got chosen.   So on November 23, he will be riding in the parade.

I will keep everyone updated on how it goes tomorrow and the date for the other procedure. 

Thank you for your thoughts & prayers. 

Update on Dad

 Update on Dad

     We went for a CT scan & a consultation today.  CT scan still the same.  The first doctor said that he was a good candidate for the aortic valve replacement.   The second doctor said that he wanted to do a heart cather on him to see if anything else needs to be done.  If he finds anything, he can add that to the list.  Then he said, if I came down to it. He was do either a pacemaker or open heart surgery.    Then Dad should be able to get up and move or go.

     Once we schedule the heart cather.   By the time we leave, we should have the date on the other procedure.  Then we will go from there.  

Please continue to pray for us!