365 days - gone to long
I am trying to find the words to explain emotions & how I feel about today and the next couple of days. I'm trying to explain my emotions with it being a year since I lost Timmy. When people say that you will be okay. Sorry no the flip you will not be okay. It may get better. But not right now. That day is played over & over inside my head. When you see your spouse take their last breath. When the doctor's or nurse's come in & say "I'm sorry for your loss!"
I have tried to put it in another part of my mind. But everytime, I open my car door & look down at the pavement or gravel. No matter where I am at parking my car. I am looking for Timmy to be there. I know that sounds crazy. But now it's a habit.
I want to see his face. I want to hear his voice & I want him to walk through the door. But I know that's not going to happen. The last year has been an emotional living h--l.
It's been day by day. Which is?
1 year - 12 months
1 year - 365 days
1 year - 52.143 weeks
1 year - 8, 760 hours
1 year- 525,600 minutes
1 year- 31,536,000 seconds
I know some people may say that's not alot. But to someone who has lost a spouse or a love one it is.
I found this song. And if you listen to the words, it describes Timmy very well. It is "Angel" by Beverly Mitchell. If you have never heard this song, here are the words to it.