4 long months
Today has been a long day. It's been hard for me to write something up & then it doesn't sound good. But it's like Doug from the movie, "UP!" "Squirrel!!!"
Today is 4 months since I have heard your voice, seen you walk in the door & laid in the bed beside you. I explained that to a good friend & he said to sit down & listen to my words. Think about what is going on around you. I said, okay! He said don't get mad at me or pissed off. He said, Timmy is not coming back. I have had heard that plenty of times before that. But the way he said it, it was coming from someone outside my bubble.
The next line he said, was that I needed not to stay at home. He told me that I needed to do something by myself.
1. Get nails done
2. Get toes done
Then he kept listing things that I need to do. In my mind, if I was to to them my anxiety level would be up.
I ventured out this past weekend, when Ashley & I went to a New Kids on the Block concert in Charlotte. I was so excited, but I felt like I was having a out of body experience. I just felt weird while having fun.
Then when talking to the friend. He told me remember several different sayings. They have really helped:
1. Remember, keep moving! If you stop, that's 100% certainly you want make it!
2. You got this! Inch by inch, side by side!
Then I had lunch with some classmates from.high school - Justin Tolley, Sarah Roney, Jennifer Miles, Katie Snider, Kristi Wilson & Jamie Troxler. We all had a ball & a good time.
I'm trying to expand what I do & try new things. It is scary. If someone can help me or give me some ideas, please let me know?
Thank you for the continuing thoughts and prayers.