14 months

 

 

14 months 

     14 months seems like a long time. It's is to someone who has lost someone. People have told me, that it will be okay. I have tried to comprehend that, but I relieved that day from day to day. I tried not to think about it. But it's hard. 

     I hear a song. I see one of his hats. I see one of his shirts or something that has JR Tobacco on it. It's HARD!! I know I don't show it, but it's been rough.   

14 months - 60.833 weeks 

14 months- 425.834 days

14 months- 10220.011 hours 

14 months- 613606.7 minutes 

14 months- 36792040.3 seconds 

     But there is one thing that I am learning about myself.   I hate being lonely.   That's hard for me to say.   I'm tired of being ghosted.  That's all I  am going to say about that.  

I know I'm all over the place with this blog.  But lately it's how my brain works. 

Please continue to pray for us.

13 months

 

13 months 

     I have been having trouble with writing this.  But, here it goes. It's a every day battle for me to understand why you left.   People have told me that it will get better.   Or you will get through it.   So far in my experience, this constantly sucks.

     I was talking to my therapist about this.   We were talking about Affirmations.  Did you know that there are Affirmations dealing with grief or loss?  Here are some:

• I release the tension in my body and relax.
• I take comfort in the memories of my loved one.
• I will hold on to love & release the grief. 
• I will give myself a break today. 
• It's okay that I need time to grieve.
• I can ask for help if I need it.

     It's been day by day.  And it's a learning experience as I go.  But who cares what I say.  

13  months = 56.488 weeks

13 months = 395.417 days

13 months = 9, 490.01 hours 

13 months = 369,400.624 minutes

13 months  = 34,164,037.4 seconds 

13 months = 34,164,037,440 milliseconds 

     It is really hard for me to say what I want.   Because I know I am going to have some things said back to me.  But I'm starting to learn, I don't care. But I'm a work in progress with everything that is going on with me.  

     There are some new things that I have going on.  Yes, once you lose a spouse- life has to keep on going.  

 Please continue to pray for us as we figure everything out.