Weight Loss & Being Confused

 

Weight Loss & Being confused

     

     Someone asked me to write about my weight loss journey.  I have tried several times. I don't even know where to start.   It must be my shy personality.  I don't like to talk about things.  When there is change, I will keep it to myself until I hit my goal.

                                                   

     I can stand in front of a mirror and say, I don't like the way I look.  I know someone world tell me to stop talking about myself, that way.  I can't help it.  I have had my feelings hurt, so many times.  That I have tried my best to recover from it.  Some people may understand me, however I am a hard person to figure out

     I have been a hard person to figure out for as long as I can remember. But, I have been on the overweight size/ plus sizes, since I was younger.  I have always wanted to be invisible.  I hate being center of attention or put on the spot, to where everyone would be looking at me.  However it never worked.   

     The reason I am saying this is because in June 2019, I went to the doctor's for a checkup.  She challenged me to a weight loss goal.  I accepted the challenge.  However, I didn't do my part.  I went back in April of 2020, after the Pandemic started.  She wasn't very happy.   Then a couple of weeks later, my sister Heather, had a stroke.  She is only 39 years old.  So, with the stress of the pandemic and the stress of Heather and her stroke.  I started stress eating and gained 20 lbs.

     So, I had a scheduled a checkup with my doctor.  I knew she was not going to be happy with my weight.  So, I talked to a friend her name is Kristy.  I asked for help.  She asked me to do several things for her.  I told her okay and did what she has asked.  My starting weight was 357 lbs.  I have lost a total of 7 lbs. I have lost 38 inches.  My goal is UNDETERMINED , right now. But, my main thing is to get more active with my son & to get into a little black dress - that I have only wore once (17 years ago).

     I will keep everyone updated & I would like to thank everyone in advance.

Mr. Howard and the Fab 4

Mr. Howard and the Fab 4,

     Thank you for the acknowledgement of doing the surprises that you received in the mail.  You guys deserve them.  When I 1st saw the Youtube videos of you guys, I was hooked.  You see, my sisters and I were in the Western Alamance High School All-American Brigade from Elon, NC.  We were in the Marching Band for 25 years.  We played the following instruments: Trombone & Pit, Clarinet & Bass Clarinet, Flute & Piccolo.  Those were the best years of my life.  Because I was a part of a group that entertain.  

     Once I saw the video post of you guys, I felt the urge or the need to show support to you guys.  Because I had been where you guys are.  That was when I started to talk to Justin, trying to figure our that what you guys liked.  The reason I wanted to do this is, back in 2018- my family & I had a really bad year (the whole year).  We were living in a hotel and homeless. I explained this to Justin.  Then a very good friend wanted to do something special for my family.  They bought us a house.  NO REPAY BACK!  Just to pay it forward!

     I thought about it and wanted to show my creative ability.  I also wanted to encourage the guys to continue what they are doing.  Then while talking to Justin about you guys.  I learned that you guys are a tight- knit group.  (AKA: brothers from another mother.)

     The more I worked on the surprise canvas artwork.  The more I was hoping & praying: 1) you guys were surprised & 2) you were going to like them.  

     Then when I read what Mr. Howard posted on Facebook, I teared up and choked up.  You guys are an inspiration to everyone (young and old).  People who talk junk about Justin and you guys are really not nice.  To me the people, are not worried about the talent ability of the everyone in the band.  They only worried about the color and how it offends them.  

Your Friend

Christy

My weight loss story

"My Weight Loss Story"

Someone asked me to share how I have lost all the weight that I have lost.

     So it started back in 2014, I weighed a total of 384.8 lbs.  I was constantly sleepy & tired.  I figured that it was my crazy work schedule.  Then by 10/14, I had lost a total of 12 lbs.  Nothing had changed in my diet - it was confusing.  But by the beginning of November, I had lost a total of 18 lbs- down 367 lbs.  

     As of 11/14, (13 weeks in), I have lost a total of 20.8 lbs.  By the end of December & the end of the year 2014.  I had lost a total 29.2 lbs.  My weight was 355.2 lbs.  Then I took off 3 months from recording my weight.  So as of 2015, I lost a total of altogether 31.2 lbs.   A month and a half later, I had lost another 1.5 lbs.  So altogether I was down to 350 lbs.

   

     So in September 2015, I ended up going to the doctor.  He ran some test, which showed him that I had Hypothyroidism and High Blood Pressure.  Hypothyroidism makes someone very sleepy, fatigue, it messes with your emotions, and other different signs and symptoms. The doctor and I talked it over and it was the reason I was losing the weight. My thyroid was messing everything up .  So the doctor put me on medicines.  Then I lost another 15 lbs.  And to this day I can not get any lower on my weight.

    In 2015-2016, it was a very scary time.  I was having some health issues.  I went to the doctor and they did an DNC & the test came back with me having an precancerous scare.  So, I went to the doctor and he suggested one of two things.  He suggested to do a hysterectomy.  So, I couldn't bend or pickup anything for 6 weeks.  

     In 2018, I started feeling sick to my stomach.  The pain got more and more intense to where I was not able to handle the pain.  Then one afternoon, I drove me & mom down to UNC Hospital in Hillsborough, NC.  When the doctors & nurses checked my out.  They found out that I had gallstones in my gallbladder need to be removed. 

     As of today, I have lost a total of 57.8 lbs.  I have weighed the same weight range for almost 2 1/2 years now.  My goal is to lose 135 more lbs.  You may think that I am crazy.  But, I need to do this.  Once I get the weight off.  I know I will feel better.  But I will look weird. Because I have always been big. 

2016

2020

Please continue to pray for me in my big adventure.  

Anxiety, Depression, and Hypothyroidism - Great combination--NOT!!!!!!!

Anxiety, Depression and Hypothyroidism - Great Combination

  With someone that is dealing with all 3 of these health issues.  It's not fun at all.  People may look at me and think that everything is going Peachy keen.  But I promise you up and down, it's not.  I know that when people look at me.  Why is she always so happy.  Well, I want to come clean.  IT IS A FRONT.

   Well, I can tell you that I have been dealing with Anxiety and Depression for a very long time now.  It started in Middle School when I started to get picked on & it continued until High School.  And I would try my best to be invisible, which it never happened.   I would try my best to avoid people, so it wouldn't happen.  Well, it did not matter what.  

     Then a couple of years ago, I went to the eye doctor for an examine.  The doctor came in a explained to me that I had extra fluid on my spine.  It I didn't get it corrected, that I could end up going blind.  I am still trying to process this and a work in progress.  This also scares me, because I see what my Grandmother Jojo when she was alive being 85% blind.  Also with my Mother, she goes every 3 to 6 months to a needle shot in her eye to help her.

     Then after that, I went to the another doctor had a some lab work done.  The reason I had lab work done was I was constantly falling asleep when I would calm down after a very stressful day.  That test came back positive for low levels in my thyroid.  Which is called, Hypothyroidism.  I was also concerned, I had lost at least 20 to 25 lbs with out even trying. A person with Hypothyroidism has symptoms of being irritable, cranky, sleepy, always tired, weight gain, forgetful and depressed. 

       A couple of years pasted, I was having trouble with my stomach.  Went to the doctor, he ran some test and ended up doing an DNC.  Well, the doctor informed me that when the test results would come back.  He would call me.  I will never forget, where I was or what was doing, when I got the call.  I was on lunch, when the doctor called me and informed me that the test results.  The cells that they tested came back pre-cancerous. A couple of weeks after the initial call, I was setup to have one of 2 choices done (IUD or an Hysterectomy - which meant I couldn't have anymore kids.) That was the scarcest day of my life and my whole world slowed down to a crawl.  

     Then a couple of years pasted, I drove myself down to UNC Hillsbrough Hospital and come to find out that I needed my gallbladder removed.  So, I ended up going under the needle again.  However, after this I have felt much better.

     I guess what I am trying to say is that.  With on top of this and everything else that I have been through in the past. I guess God is shown me that I can handle whatever is thrown at me.

Why in the World, does this go on?

    

All I have to say is, "Why?"

     We are living in a cruel world, & it's getting ridiculous & out of control.  All this bullying other people & kids needs to stop.  If doesn't matter, your race, your skin color, if you are rich or poor, popular or not popular, fat or skinny.  God made us all the same way.  He gave each and everyone a heart.

     I have 2 topics that you see that is a everyday issue in public or social media.  The topics are kids bullying kids & kids disrespecting parents or another adult.

     The 1st topic "Kids bullying Kids", it hits near & close to the my heart.  Because when  I was young and in school.   I was bullied a whole heck of a lot.  It was basically verbal saying (your fat, you ugly) & the words were from classmates that was messing with me.  Then it continued until high school and it got even worse and it hurt even more.  Because classmates had parties and sleep overs and I never got invited.  Then it took me 20+ years to talk about it.  And I still have TROUBLE talking about it.  Sometimes I have to play it off like everything is fine.  But, blame well knowing it not.

     So when I hear or read about stories where kids got bullied by a classmate.  Then they do something to them self.  It breaks my heart and makes me angry.  And I want to cry for that child.  But, I know that I can pray for the child and family.  Also, continue telling my story.

     The 2nd topic that is also near and dear to my heart is "RESPECT for Adults and Elder's by kids".  When I was being bought up by my parents.  Then when I would stay with my grandparents.  It was Yes Ma'am, No Ma'am, Yes Sir, No Sir, Please and Thank you.  If Grown-ups were talking and you didn't wait for them to stop.  You would be picking your butt up off the floor.  

     If they were talking and you waited until they were done.  Then they would acknowledge you.  If you tried to touch an adult (ie: slap, kick or hit).  You would have consider your self dead.  Now days I see kids, talking back to parents, teachers and other grown up.  And telling them what they are going to do.  That really ticks me off.  

   Basically what I am trying to say is,

  EVERYONE NEEDS TO RESPECT EVERYONE ( ALL AGES)

Am I Wonderwoman?

"Am I Wonder Woman?" 

That is a daily question that I ask myself.

     I guess it is really frustrating that people make me out to be like Wonder Woman.  Blame well knowing, that I am not her.  But, a girl can wish right. I know what I have to do, daily.  But, I would like to just sit down an take a break.  Then you have people that just wanna talk junk about how the way you do stuff.  I really don't understand why they get off on stuff like that.  

People can talk so much junk.  In turn when it comes to them doing stuff.  Oh, WOW!  It just kills them.  So, basically I want everyone to back off of me.  I am doing the best I can do.  Even if it is not asking for any help at all.  I am a very determined person and I will make it happen any way I can.

My daily schedule it goes like this:

• get up
• Get ready
• Take Dad to drive the bus
• Come back and get Kaleb up and going for the school day
• Take Kaleb to school
• Pick Dad up from School, so he can take me to work
• Drop me off at work,
• 8 hours of chasing kids, changing diapers and playing with them 
• Dad picks me up from work 
• We either go to pick Timmy up or we go home
• I get home: help mom out, who is in a wheel chair
• fix supper, help Kaleb with homework, do laundry and other household chores
• Then if Timmy needs to be picked up, then I do.
• Go an get Groceries if needed
• Back to the house
• Kaleb shower, bed, and ready for the next day.
• Then I take a shower, pajamas and bed.
• Not before 11 pm.
• Then back up at 4:30, the next day to start all over again.

      I know it doesn't sound like much.  But at my weight and health issues that probably still doesn't sound like much any way.  But it sure in the heck is hard, sometimes to get up and go.  I am trying to make some changes, but it is hard as heck to do so with my flipped up schedule.  My goal that I made with my doctor is to get to down 60 more lbs or more. I have to have that done by the end of 2019. THAT IS MY GOAL, ONE WAY OR ANOTHER.  IT WILL BE DONE.

Profession: Chosen/ Love doing or you just had to find something

Profession??????

 Chosen for you/ Love doing it

or

You just had to find something to do

     I know that every day, somewhere someone ask, "Am I doing the right job?"  Or "Did I Choose the right profession?" In my opinion, that if you love the job, then you are meant to be there.  There are more than several jobs that I commend the people doing.  They are firefighter, police officer, EMTs, Nurses, Doctors, School-age teachers (K-12), Construction Workers, Truck Drivers, and most of all School Bus Drivers.  All those jobs, people love to do or that is their calling.

               What would be your top 5 jobs that you commend other people on?

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     I really don't know how people can do all these jobs and then come home or wonder am I coming home.    

    Maybe, a lot of people don't know about me is that I have 2 Associates Degrees from Alamance Community College.  The 1st one I got right after I graduated from Western Alamance, that was Business Administration.  Which was my 1st passion.  I would work with my Aunt at the company she worked with.  I was very good at all of those jobs.  She challenged me.  Then, once I graduated in 1999. 

     I felt the need to challenge myself again.  So, I went back and got my 2nd Associate Degree from Alamance Community College.  The 2nd one was Early Childhood Education.  Which every since I started in 2000.  I have been in Child care ever since.  I have worked with ages (6 weeks - 12 years).  When I did my student teaching to graduate, I was even in Kindergarten and a Special Needs class at South Graham.  I will admit that I wanted my babies back.  

     I have worked at several different centers.  I was a Lead teacher and a Director of a center.  I also did both of those jobs together.  I have basically seen my 1st or 2nd group of kids, when I first started teaching - graduated from high school and had babies of their own.  And that makes me feel old.  I will continue doing this job as long as I can.