Question, "Am I Okay?"

 

 I know these blogs seem like I talk about the same thing everytime.  Where it is almost the same thing, but it's in a different context.   I have a quick question for everyone.  

How many people think that I am Okay?

 The answer to the question is,  NO!!  I haven't been okay for a while now.  The reason I asked was to see if people understood how I act the way I do.   

I am not a rich person,  so I can't afford to see a therapist  to talk to.  This is the reason I started this blog.  To be able to vent.  I mean I have friends to talk to  but it's like I am boring them with my problems.  Doing a blog, let's me vent. Venting is like instead of talking you are writing or typing. 

It sucks. I can't explain,  why or what is going on in my head.  I can put it down on paper than physically face someone else and spill my guts to them.  

See, this what I am talking about.   With all that I have been through,  my mind jumps all over the place.  

This is how I feel about myself.   Which I know is crazy.  I don't understand why I feel like a nobody or that I am worthless.   I know I don't give myself the credit , I deserve.   But it's the way, I feel.  Probably every single person that reads this, who has met me or know me for a very long time will disagree.   I can't explain.   But it's the way I feel.   

Please pray for me,  so I can figure out what is going on. 💔💔😭😭😢😢😢🤔🤔💚💚💚