A long week

 

A long week

     It has been a very long week and it's not even the weekend, yet.  I have been anxious about different things that have happened to me.  I mean it's been that I almost had a anxiety attack which has never happened.  My heart rate was as high as 130.  Yeah, and it freaked me out.  But, I recovered.

     On top of that it was a short week at work.  Only 3 days.  And a holiday in the week, too.   I would like to say that I am thankful for my family, & friends. I'm thankful that I have a home, food, & clothing.  Because a couple of years ago, I only had the food & clothing.  But no place to live.  And I still thank God every day that we have a place to live. 

     I would like to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving.

Wide awake - Figuring things out

 Wide awake

     Here it is late on a Saturday night.  Yes, it is passed my bedtime.  I'm listening to my favorite Music Group - Home Free.  It's not even relaxing me.  I am so wound up, it sucks.  Also, I am just a venting.

     Something is bothering me or something is weighing heavy on my heart.  I don't know what to do.  You try to do something for someone & I guess they like it or not.  I mean it's the thought that counts.  You are only one flipping person who can only do so much.  With the supplies and budget that you have.

     I have always felt like, I didn't fit in anywhere.  I felt like that growing up & now I do, too.  I thought if I had several different types of social media.  I would be able to have that group of people that I could talk to about things.  However, I guess I was wrong.

     I am just FRUSTRATED!  I REALLY DON'T KNOW  IF I AM MAKING ANY SENSE.  

    I am sorry if I am not making any sense.  This is how my brain is when I am in one of my moods.  I just start throwing things around in my head.  And I want relax, until I get it out.

     Please pray for me as I figure things out.

Big Milestone

Big Milestone

     Some people may say that I am losing weight constantly.  However, I see little change.  I have noticed it in my pants size.  Only by very little.  I spoke with Mrs. Kristy today.  I gave her my weight and measurements.  She  said, Christy you have lost 30 lbs & 63+ inches in less than 4 months.  

     I asked her if that was good or what?  She responded, "That's fantastic!"  I explained the reason I was asking was sometimes I have trouble believing that is the way I look.  I guess because of how back when I was bullied in school.  And since then I have not looked at myself the same way. Then I asked Kristy, if some people could have PTSD for people bullying and picking on them so long?  She said, "That makes complete sense!"   I guess that is the reason,  started this blog.

     The reason, I asked was that I have always been big or overweight.  And since I have been doing this since Aug 3, visually I can't tell.  I have a more than over 126+ lbs to go.  I am determined to get there, even being injured.  

     I also think that I still am referring to the October 2018 blog.  About when I told everyone everything about how I was treated in Elementary, Middle and high school.  When someone, ask how I am feeling or how do I look?  I always somehow try to change the subject. Because I really don't feel like talking about it.

     So, the first picture is so true right now.  I know I need to talk about it.  However it will be a long time talking to some one verbally.  However, I can put it more on paper and computer.  I guess the reason I do this is so I want have to look at anyone in the eyes.  

Please continue to pray for me as I continue on this journey.

And I want to thank each and everyone that has supported me.

Love each and everyone of you guys! 

Change has began

Change has began

     As many of you know, I have been doing the Keto Diet since Aug 3rd. I am down 28 lbs and 59 1/2 in inches.   I have not had a soda in 3 months.  I know that I am suppose to be proud of myself. I really don't know how to.  The reason I said is because, when I was younger and in Elementary, Middle and High school.  I was picked on  & bullied for the way I looked.  And I lost my self-esteem.  

     When I tell someone, how much I have lost.  They are like Yeah!  You are looking awesome!  However, I don't see it.  And I don't feel it.  But, I put on my Happy face and go with the flow.  

     I guess since I have always been so big and on the heavy side.  I couldn't picture myself being on the small size.  I think if I lost down to my goal weight, I would look on the sick side.  My goal is to lose more than 150 lbs.  I'm trying to change my life around.  

     Even with an injury, I have been still trying to compete in the 35 mile Breast Cancer Challenge that expires on October 31st.  Then I will start another challenge on Nov 1st, which is called the NC 60 mile challenge.  I don't know what I have got myself into.  But I am determined to do it.  

     I don't know if I will have support or not.  It really doesn't matter.  I will kick some butt by myself.  However, I can't over extend my knee/ leg until I find out what the heck is going on. Please continue to  send thoughts and prayers.  Thank you all for your support.

Feeling Frustrated!!!

Feeling Frustrated!

I have been working so hard since Aug 2020.  I have been very constant with everything that I have been shown. I have lost a total of 56 1/2 inches & 26 lbs.  That was at last Saturday. 

 I thought I would try something new.  So on October 1st, I started the 35 mile breast cancer challenge.  It goes from Oct 1 - Oct 31.  So, I started walking 30 minutes after work and then I got brave and started jogging from one parking spot to another. I did that 2 times each.  To the point I was up to jogging 6 parking spots.  I would get home and relax and my left knee starting hurting.  With the times that I have walked, I have done 14.99 miles - so I have 20.01 miles left to go.  So, I would ice it.  Then I would use the tens machine.  

On Friday, October 12, I woke up and my left knee was swollen.  So, I went to the ER and the they said that I needed to relax my knee and go to see an orthopedic doctor.  So this past Tuesday, I went to see the doctor.  She told me that she didn't like the way it looked.  Now, I have to wear a brace until Oct 26.  That is when I am doing an MRI.

However, I can still walk but very little.  Right now, I am chilling and relaxing.

Something New

As many of you know that I have been doing the Keto diet, with the help of a dear friend- Kristy Albright.  I have been doing this since August 3rd.  I have lost 19 lbs & 47 inches.   I have had some really good days.  And I have had some set backs.  Well, today I had a good day.

I went to work, I had so much energy after work that I went on a 30 minute walk.  I even did a little bit of jogging.  I know coming from me that is a miracle.  

The following picture is what I did today.  

Then starting tomorrow, I will be doing the 35 mile virtual breast cancer challenge.  It goes from Oct 1 - October 31.  I will be doing the challenge in support of my Aunt who is a Breast cancer survivor.  

I would like to thank everyone for their support and continued prayers.  I will keep everyone updated.

Weight Loss & Being Confused

 

Weight Loss & Being confused

     

     Someone asked me to write about my weight loss journey.  I have tried several times. I don't even know where to start.   It must be my shy personality.  I don't like to talk about things.  When there is change, I will keep it to myself until I hit my goal.

                                                   

     I can stand in front of a mirror and say, I don't like the way I look.  I know someone world tell me to stop talking about myself, that way.  I can't help it.  I have had my feelings hurt, so many times.  That I have tried my best to recover from it.  Some people may understand me, however I am a hard person to figure out

     I have been a hard person to figure out for as long as I can remember. But, I have been on the overweight size/ plus sizes, since I was younger.  I have always wanted to be invisible.  I hate being center of attention or put on the spot, to where everyone would be looking at me.  However it never worked.   

     The reason I am saying this is because in June 2019, I went to the doctor's for a checkup.  She challenged me to a weight loss goal.  I accepted the challenge.  However, I didn't do my part.  I went back in April of 2020, after the Pandemic started.  She wasn't very happy.   Then a couple of weeks later, my sister Heather, had a stroke.  She is only 39 years old.  So, with the stress of the pandemic and the stress of Heather and her stroke.  I started stress eating and gained 20 lbs.

     So, I had a scheduled a checkup with my doctor.  I knew she was not going to be happy with my weight.  So, I talked to a friend her name is Kristy.  I asked for help.  She asked me to do several things for her.  I told her okay and did what she has asked.  My starting weight was 357 lbs.  I have lost a total of 7 lbs. I have lost 38 inches.  My goal is UNDETERMINED , right now. But, my main thing is to get more active with my son & to get into a little black dress - that I have only wore once (17 years ago).

     I will keep everyone updated & I would like to thank everyone in advance.

Mr. Howard and the Fab 4

Mr. Howard and the Fab 4,

     Thank you for the acknowledgement of doing the surprises that you received in the mail.  You guys deserve them.  When I 1st saw the Youtube videos of you guys, I was hooked.  You see, my sisters and I were in the Western Alamance High School All-American Brigade from Elon, NC.  We were in the Marching Band for 25 years.  We played the following instruments: Trombone & Pit, Clarinet & Bass Clarinet, Flute & Piccolo.  Those were the best years of my life.  Because I was a part of a group that entertain.  

     Once I saw the video post of you guys, I felt the urge or the need to show support to you guys.  Because I had been where you guys are.  That was when I started to talk to Justin, trying to figure our that what you guys liked.  The reason I wanted to do this is, back in 2018- my family & I had a really bad year (the whole year).  We were living in a hotel and homeless. I explained this to Justin.  Then a very good friend wanted to do something special for my family.  They bought us a house.  NO REPAY BACK!  Just to pay it forward!

     I thought about it and wanted to show my creative ability.  I also wanted to encourage the guys to continue what they are doing.  Then while talking to Justin about you guys.  I learned that you guys are a tight- knit group.  (AKA: brothers from another mother.)

     The more I worked on the surprise canvas artwork.  The more I was hoping & praying: 1) you guys were surprised & 2) you were going to like them.  

     Then when I read what Mr. Howard posted on Facebook, I teared up and choked up.  You guys are an inspiration to everyone (young and old).  People who talk junk about Justin and you guys are really not nice.  To me the people, are not worried about the talent ability of the everyone in the band.  They only worried about the color and how it offends them.  

Your Friend

Christy

My weight loss story

"My Weight Loss Story"

Someone asked me to share how I have lost all the weight that I have lost.

     So it started back in 2014, I weighed a total of 384.8 lbs.  I was constantly sleepy & tired.  I figured that it was my crazy work schedule.  Then by 10/14, I had lost a total of 12 lbs.  Nothing had changed in my diet - it was confusing.  But by the beginning of November, I had lost a total of 18 lbs- down 367 lbs.  

     As of 11/14, (13 weeks in), I have lost a total of 20.8 lbs.  By the end of December & the end of the year 2014.  I had lost a total 29.2 lbs.  My weight was 355.2 lbs.  Then I took off 3 months from recording my weight.  So as of 2015, I lost a total of altogether 31.2 lbs.   A month and a half later, I had lost another 1.5 lbs.  So altogether I was down to 350 lbs.

   

     So in September 2015, I ended up going to the doctor.  He ran some test, which showed him that I had Hypothyroidism and High Blood Pressure.  Hypothyroidism makes someone very sleepy, fatigue, it messes with your emotions, and other different signs and symptoms. The doctor and I talked it over and it was the reason I was losing the weight. My thyroid was messing everything up .  So the doctor put me on medicines.  Then I lost another 15 lbs.  And to this day I can not get any lower on my weight.

    In 2015-2016, it was a very scary time.  I was having some health issues.  I went to the doctor and they did an DNC & the test came back with me having an precancerous scare.  So, I went to the doctor and he suggested one of two things.  He suggested to do a hysterectomy.  So, I couldn't bend or pickup anything for 6 weeks.  

     In 2018, I started feeling sick to my stomach.  The pain got more and more intense to where I was not able to handle the pain.  Then one afternoon, I drove me & mom down to UNC Hospital in Hillsborough, NC.  When the doctors & nurses checked my out.  They found out that I had gallstones in my gallbladder need to be removed. 

     As of today, I have lost a total of 57.8 lbs.  I have weighed the same weight range for almost 2 1/2 years now.  My goal is to lose 135 more lbs.  You may think that I am crazy.  But, I need to do this.  Once I get the weight off.  I know I will feel better.  But I will look weird. Because I have always been big. 

2016

2020

Please continue to pray for me in my big adventure.