Year 2020 in Review

Year 2020 in Review

     People may say 2020, has been a CRAZY year for them.  Well it has been for us.  January & February, was okay for us.  Then March rolled around with the Covid-19 pandemic started.  Kaleb was out of school. Dad was closed for a couple of days.  Timmy & I was out for a couple of days. Then Dad, Timmy & I went back to work.  We were classified as Essential Workers.  Dad went back to driving the school bus to deliver the food to the local kids.  Timmy got to go back to work.  I went back to work at the daycare, because we had essential worker kids.  

        Then in April/ May - Heather had a stroke that affected the right side of her brain.  Which I think is the short-term memory loss.  She is like a 2 year old child that has tantrums.  There are several different sides that is not being shown.  The weird thing is there were no signs or symptoms.  

     In June - we had a drive-by Birthday parade for Kaleb, which included Alamance County Sheriff, Burlington Dare Officer, Faucette Fire Department, Alamance County EMS & Medic 3.  Kaleb had a ball.

     Then In July,  I had a wake up call by my doctor.  She told me that she didn't like my numbers.  So In August I asked a friend for help and her name is Kristy.  She started helping me out.  I started out at 358 lbs.  Then I started walking and being active.  However my knees are not letting me workout.  I am a down to 322 lbs. 

     Then next couple of months was crazy.  Then in November Dad was confirmed positive with covid-19 & double pneumonia.  So we all were in quarantine for 14 days. Then I ended up going for a MRI on my knee.  So the results came back in & its a slight tear in my meniscus and arthritis (uncle Arthur).  So here it is 2 days before Christmas.  I went an got a shot or cortisone. But no fluid was taken off my knee.  

     Then on Christmas Eve, Heather went to the hospital.  She had a fever of 104 to 105.  Come to find out she had a infection in her leg.  Now here it is 2 days before New Years Eve.  And on December 30, I went to the hospital for a chemical burn on my pointer finger .  And it hurts like a Mother. 

See ya, 2020!  Hello 2021!

 

A long week

 

A long week

     It has been a very long week and it's not even the weekend, yet.  I have been anxious about different things that have happened to me.  I mean it's been that I almost had a anxiety attack which has never happened.  My heart rate was as high as 130.  Yeah, and it freaked me out.  But, I recovered.

     On top of that it was a short week at work.  Only 3 days.  And a holiday in the week, too.   I would like to say that I am thankful for my family, & friends. I'm thankful that I have a home, food, & clothing.  Because a couple of years ago, I only had the food & clothing.  But no place to live.  And I still thank God every day that we have a place to live. 

     I would like to wish you all a Happy Thanksgiving.

Wide awake - Figuring things out

 Wide awake

     Here it is late on a Saturday night.  Yes, it is passed my bedtime.  I'm listening to my favorite Music Group - Home Free.  It's not even relaxing me.  I am so wound up, it sucks.  Also, I am just a venting.

     Something is bothering me or something is weighing heavy on my heart.  I don't know what to do.  You try to do something for someone & I guess they like it or not.  I mean it's the thought that counts.  You are only one flipping person who can only do so much.  With the supplies and budget that you have.

     I have always felt like, I didn't fit in anywhere.  I felt like that growing up & now I do, too.  I thought if I had several different types of social media.  I would be able to have that group of people that I could talk to about things.  However, I guess I was wrong.

     I am just FRUSTRATED!  I REALLY DON'T KNOW  IF I AM MAKING ANY SENSE.  

    I am sorry if I am not making any sense.  This is how my brain is when I am in one of my moods.  I just start throwing things around in my head.  And I want relax, until I get it out.

     Please pray for me as I figure things out.

Big Milestone

Big Milestone

     Some people may say that I am losing weight constantly.  However, I see little change.  I have noticed it in my pants size.  Only by very little.  I spoke with Mrs. Kristy today.  I gave her my weight and measurements.  She  said, Christy you have lost 30 lbs & 63+ inches in less than 4 months.  

     I asked her if that was good or what?  She responded, "That's fantastic!"  I explained the reason I was asking was sometimes I have trouble believing that is the way I look.  I guess because of how back when I was bullied in school.  And since then I have not looked at myself the same way. Then I asked Kristy, if some people could have PTSD for people bullying and picking on them so long?  She said, "That makes complete sense!"   I guess that is the reason,  started this blog.

     The reason, I asked was that I have always been big or overweight.  And since I have been doing this since Aug 3, visually I can't tell.  I have a more than over 126+ lbs to go.  I am determined to get there, even being injured.  

     I also think that I still am referring to the October 2018 blog.  About when I told everyone everything about how I was treated in Elementary, Middle and high school.  When someone, ask how I am feeling or how do I look?  I always somehow try to change the subject. Because I really don't feel like talking about it.

     So, the first picture is so true right now.  I know I need to talk about it.  However it will be a long time talking to some one verbally.  However, I can put it more on paper and computer.  I guess the reason I do this is so I want have to look at anyone in the eyes.  

Please continue to pray for me as I continue on this journey.

And I want to thank each and everyone that has supported me.

Love each and everyone of you guys! 

Change has began

Change has began

     As many of you know, I have been doing the Keto Diet since Aug 3rd. I am down 28 lbs and 59 1/2 in inches.   I have not had a soda in 3 months.  I know that I am suppose to be proud of myself. I really don't know how to.  The reason I said is because, when I was younger and in Elementary, Middle and High school.  I was picked on  & bullied for the way I looked.  And I lost my self-esteem.  

     When I tell someone, how much I have lost.  They are like Yeah!  You are looking awesome!  However, I don't see it.  And I don't feel it.  But, I put on my Happy face and go with the flow.  

     I guess since I have always been so big and on the heavy side.  I couldn't picture myself being on the small size.  I think if I lost down to my goal weight, I would look on the sick side.  My goal is to lose more than 150 lbs.  I'm trying to change my life around.  

     Even with an injury, I have been still trying to compete in the 35 mile Breast Cancer Challenge that expires on October 31st.  Then I will start another challenge on Nov 1st, which is called the NC 60 mile challenge.  I don't know what I have got myself into.  But I am determined to do it.  

     I don't know if I will have support or not.  It really doesn't matter.  I will kick some butt by myself.  However, I can't over extend my knee/ leg until I find out what the heck is going on. Please continue to  send thoughts and prayers.  Thank you all for your support.

Feeling Frustrated!!!

Feeling Frustrated!

I have been working so hard since Aug 2020.  I have been very constant with everything that I have been shown. I have lost a total of 56 1/2 inches & 26 lbs.  That was at last Saturday. 

 I thought I would try something new.  So on October 1st, I started the 35 mile breast cancer challenge.  It goes from Oct 1 - Oct 31.  So, I started walking 30 minutes after work and then I got brave and started jogging from one parking spot to another. I did that 2 times each.  To the point I was up to jogging 6 parking spots.  I would get home and relax and my left knee starting hurting.  With the times that I have walked, I have done 14.99 miles - so I have 20.01 miles left to go.  So, I would ice it.  Then I would use the tens machine.  

On Friday, October 12, I woke up and my left knee was swollen.  So, I went to the ER and the they said that I needed to relax my knee and go to see an orthopedic doctor.  So this past Tuesday, I went to see the doctor.  She told me that she didn't like the way it looked.  Now, I have to wear a brace until Oct 26.  That is when I am doing an MRI.

However, I can still walk but very little.  Right now, I am chilling and relaxing.

Something New

As many of you know that I have been doing the Keto diet, with the help of a dear friend- Kristy Albright.  I have been doing this since August 3rd.  I have lost 19 lbs & 47 inches.   I have had some really good days.  And I have had some set backs.  Well, today I had a good day.

I went to work, I had so much energy after work that I went on a 30 minute walk.  I even did a little bit of jogging.  I know coming from me that is a miracle.  

The following picture is what I did today.  

Then starting tomorrow, I will be doing the 35 mile virtual breast cancer challenge.  It goes from Oct 1 - October 31.  I will be doing the challenge in support of my Aunt who is a Breast cancer survivor.  

I would like to thank everyone for their support and continued prayers.  I will keep everyone updated.